and more.

so, more of them.

one of them, i think i had it when i was in grad school. omg, it's been 7 years.

too long.

talisman

i am a very superstitious person.

that's how i have hard time getting rid of talisman; it's supposed to be burned in bonfire at shrines or temples at the end of year; they expire after a year.

we are not supposed to keep a talisman more than a year, but this one has been at my apartment more than a year. i couldn't find a fire, i couldn't find a right moment to do it.

...also, after having such a thing in your daily life for a year, you get attached to it, and you would want to take a proper process to take care of the object.

.......also, another simple thing; i just loved this talisman. it is such a beautiful object with such a beautiful entity.

last month, i was house-sitting for somebody, and there was a fire place in the house. i knew i had to do it. otherwise, i will carry this talisman around for a long time, longer than i should.

it burned beautifully, and i felt good that i could release this small object.

spirits dwell in any small objects.

keep on going

haruki murakami's writing has been one of most important elements in my life since i read his book when i was in junior high.

some of his writings have answers for who i am, what i want, and where i'm going.
some of his books, i read so many times and those keeps on giving me a balance between what i think and what i miss, what i follow.

except for some short stories, i read everything he wrote over last 20 years. although i had read mostly in japanese, i read some of his writings in english. this is one of those:"what i talk about when i talk about running."

i was always intrigued by the idea of running even before i had read this book. i had tried to run so many times in the past, and i always stopped after 3 or 4 months. i enjoy running, but somehow it didn't capture me and i quit.

when i started to read this book, i know to whom i am giving this book. since i found out that i am not a running person, i wanted this to belong to somebody who is so into running. so it became a birthday present for my frind, runner buck.

i hope it would keep her running, as other writings of murakami keeps my mind running.